bligatory "it (the inside of my brain) got bad again" post. am i doing good things because i am a good person or because i am a bad person trying to trick others into thinking i am a good person? i said i'd learn a million hobbies 10 years ago / in 10 years and i didn't need to do anything at all for time to pass. global warming proves itself. my friends get sick trying to fall in love. now i need to beg again. now i need to repair the walls. 10 years ago i said i'd learn coping skills in 10 years and now it is now it is now it is now it is

but last week i went to a concert, papier mâchéd, took a kettlebell class, went to the beach, ate pizza for breakfast, and had weird fun sex, and today i took a shower, gave the cat its medicine, did my laundry, did the dishes, did a plank, juiced lemons, drank water, and maybe even more things that i haven't done yet!

obligitory "it's getting better" post.

turned 30 about a week ago. feeling both a subtle difference and exactly the same. will report back later.